We plan and God laughs

Well, another day, another pot of coffee (or three). I finally had to get out of the house and be with other humans again. Sooooo, here I am at It's a Grind with all the real estate agents, retirees and cops surfing the web.

I don't really have much going on right now except trying to stay sane while John is not working. He has a line on a few jobs but is kind of concentrating on school right now. He has decided to go for his BS in Construction Management since work is off so much and he has the time to devote to it. We both figure that he might as well due to the tuition being discounted 40% if he does it right after he gets his AA (only one more term left). Not to mention that he has found that he really likes school and further schooling can only make our situation better once this recession lifts.

I have finally reconciled myself to being a mom so I am looking at having more kids. I REALLY, REALLY want a normal little girl(s) and I am going to do whatever it takes to do it. Life is too short to worry about what if's and what might have been's so I am going to do what I want to do and damn the torpedos.

I am finally happy being me and letting things be as they will be and not worrying about things that I can't change (David, Meghan, Craig, finances, etc.). My life has been one big "You had to be there" jokes and I am finally learning the wisdom of the saying "We plan and God laughs". I have realized that when I do what I want to do and make myself happy, everyone around me seems to be happier and my whole household becomes much more peaceful. Don't get me wrong, I still have to nag the guys to do stuff but I also know that if I have to nag A LOT, it isn't worth the stress that I feel and I have two choices-1. Leave it and don't worry about it or 2. Do it myself and enjoy the feeling of having it done.

David is doing much better (as far as much better gets with a 16 year old boy) and Craig is working almost every day so I don't have to put up with him more than a few hours at night and even then, he is usually outside drinking beer and smoking (neither is allowed in the house). Summer vacation is almost here and David will be gone most of the time at his best friend's house or at the pool so it should be pretty nice. John and I are back on track since I stopped drinking and hiding out from everyone. I realized that I am a binge drinker like my father and most of my family so I just decided that it wasn't worth being miserable and pushing away everyone that I loved. Anyway, drinking wasn't making the boredom and whatever else that I was trying to aleviate any better and it was making my anti-depressants not work right.

Anyway, life is good, the coffee is hot, the sky is blue and the surf is up (internet surf lol).

-t-

Another Mother's Day Come and Gone

Well, another Mother's Day come and gone. I can't really complain because I didn't have to do anything that I didn't want to until bed time and I finally got flowers around my tree in the front yard. I spent all day organizing my stickers and finally hanging them on my pegboard so that I can see them and actually use them YEAH!! And more good news, John is going to work today ALL DAY because he finally took my advice and did cold calls to all of his Hixson Handyman clients. It may only be one day of work but he makes more in one day than some people make in a week so it will definitely help. That means that I will have the whole house to myself today and after I do a ten-minute tidy, I get to play all day and watch whatever I want on tv. Of course I also have some errands to run but that is a given and not entirely unpleasant. Oh, and I got one other Mother's day present that I have been waiting for since Meghan was diagnosed, someone who has a Peter Pan child too (a teenage girl with Autism Spectrum Disorder and developmental age of 3-4 just like Meghan). Finally someone who gets it that I can talk to like I used to talk to Mom. Unfortunately she is in the UK but today, that hardly matters. Well, I will sign off now and watch the news before I start my 10 minute tidy so that I can PLAY!!

T

Craftaholics Anonymous

A 15 Step Recovery Program for the hopelessly addicted

1. I will not stuff craft supplies in every corner of my house;
2. I will not keep nine projects going at one time.
3. I will not pick up more embellishments when I have a ton at home.
4. I will not let my crafting area look like a condemned area.
5. I will not relegate the kitchen table to crafts.
6. I will not spend more time with my online “family” than with my real family;
7. I will not stock up on more craft supplies just because I think I need them;
8. I will not go off on a tangent when anyone mentions that little word "e-bay "
9. I will not let my crafting distract me from fixing dinner; or any other occasion like giving birth, getting married; etc. because "I am almost done";
10. I will not stay up all night crafting.
11. I will not save dryer lint, empty cereal boxes, detergent scoops, minuscule pieces of paper, because “I might be able to use them”;
12. I will not spend more on a crafting tool than I would on a new car;
13. I will not salivate at the thought of a craft shows, or garage sales;
14. I will not accept glitter as a normal part of my daily facial treatment or decor;
15. I will not make promises that are impossible to keep.

Quiet, Rainy Saturday - Beautiful

Hey all,

Just a peaceful Saturday at home watching Disney movies (National Treasure, Pirates of the Caribean) and making cards. John is at school, David is with his uncle and Meghan is with respite (who knows where Craig is - no news is good news). Sooooo, I finished my first card today and thought I would post it here. I am going to try to post the cards that I make here so that I can refer my family and friends here to see what I am doing.

Teresa

PS If I made anyone angry by my past posts and my up and down moods, I sincerely appologize. When I post my problems and/or questions on my page, I am not asking for a magic cure for my problems. I am only trying to unload here so that I don't bottle it up inside and make myself and everyone around me miserable.